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Growing in confidence

Dear Confidence,

When I was young, I was very shy. I lacked self confidence. But as a grew I started to do things that I thought helped me gain confidence. I started sticking up for myself and that turned into being angry and mad at everyone around me. Now there were a lot of factors involved with me being angry. My parents divorced when I was 9, and they both remarried. I lived mainly with my Dad and Step mom. But not only was I upset at my parents, (and most kids are) I had ADD. The ADD that I had was hard to diagnose, especially because I am a girl. I didn't understand it until I was 30. And that is another topic for another day.
We all have special circumstances that play a role in how our self confidence is. Gaining confidence was key for me. I didn't gain confidence by sticking up for myself. As a understood myself more and learned the most important thing that everyone should know, then and only then could I be confident enough to be happy with who I am. That vitally important thing is that, I am a daughter of God, I am important to at least two people. My Father in Heaven and Jesus Christ, my brother. It took me years of studying scripture and pouring my heart out in meaningful prayer that I realized that I am loved beyond measure. And not only loved but that I deserved to be loved! We all deserve to be happy inside and out. We deserve love, kindness, beauty and compassion. My favorite scripture that has popped into my mind when I struggle is, " Behold, God is my salvation; I will trust, and not be afraid; for the Lord Jehovah is my strength and my song; he also has become my salvation." 2 Nephi 22:2.
I love this verse, because it says that he is my salvation twice, so it shows the importance of what he has done for us, that he died for us, so that we may life again. Trusting is very hard for me to do and this scripture says that all you have to do is trust, so simple.
As a mother, I am always trying to be better for my kids. But I also have to remember that I need to be better for myself too. If I could say anything to my children if they struggle with self confidence one day is that, you are worth it, trust him and be not afraid, and most importantly you are loved!

Sincerely, Erin

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